hours wasted:

8 and counting…

So, I’m supposed to be cleaning in preparation for a friend’s visit. Thus far I’ve done a load of laundry (darks), made myself two mugs of tea (Chai… yummy), had a shower, played with my cats, took a nap, watched CSI with the Sister, played around on the computer (well, twice, if you count this post), and went to thought about going to the LCBO, maybe. Although I did start to organize one of my bookshelves. “Start” being the key word here, as about an hour after I’d begun I found myself rereading an old copy of Mansfield Park with the rest of the books in piles on the floor all around me. Hm.

As you can see today has been a very productive day. And since I still have a little over two hours before he arrives, no one can say I’m leaving things to the last minute. Though we are definitely ordering in tonight.

PS. Happy Canada Day!

thanks for the letter

I received this letter yesterday from someone with whom I used to be very close. I think that while I’m trying to work my way through difficult stages in my life, I should try to remember it and look back on it for inspiration (edited for privacy):

“… There is hope and if you keep up with believing in yourself and hoping for the best then you will begin to realize the changes in yourself that you need…

“I believe you can do this, I know you have the ability to face your demons and defeat them and become a better person than you ever thought you could.  Don’t give up on yourself, use time to attack things with a passion and a desire to [make things] better and where you can be happy… I love you and have been there for you and will be there [for you]…  Don’t give up.”

Don’t give up. Powerful words, and I hope that they will help me travel over the many bumps in the road I’m sure to encounter as I continue to live my life and move forward.